Ya Gotta Have FAITH!!

I am on month 3 in Texas. I love it here. I don't love the rain, but I love the wide open spaces, I love the friendly people. I love going to church at First Frisco, and I love my co-workers (the actual work is a whole other blog and we won't get into that here).

But I have to say, moving out here, without my Mark has been a lot harder than I thought it would. As I was talking to my Aunt Isy about it, I realized what it was. I feel forgotten. I miss my friends. I miss hanging out with them. I miss listening to Edward go on and on about whatever. I even miss that wierd noise Julie makes when she's scratching her ear. I thought I'd be able to come out at Christmas, but turns out, I won't be able to make it. My folks have decided to come to Oklahoma and have a family Christmas out here. I'm happy that they are finally making the trek, but my big plans to see everyone have been thwarted. I will get to see Mark for our big vacation to DC next week (look for that upcoming blog!!) and again for Thanksgiving with his sister, and again for Christmas in Oklahoma. But 6 months without seeing Tony, Sara, Julie, Barry, Edward, Mel, Alan, Betty, all the babies, and everyone else (you too, Charity) has just been really hard. I guess because maybe I haven't really started my life out here? I'm not sure. I can't even get very excited about football because I don't have my dad here to share it with.

I'm taking a Bible Study class. I'm learning more and more about my faith. I've never read it all the way through, so I'm learning a ton. I like talking to my Aunt Isy about it, because she seems to know it all. She says that we need to take all our worries and put them in God's hands, let him deal with it, and know that he will work it out for what's best. I have such a hard time with that though. Maybe because I'm a bit of a control freak. I have to know what's happening at all times. I can't even go on vacation without making an itinerary and planning out my days (ask Mark -he'll verify!). One day, I hope to put my worries, about my niece and nephew, about what Sara and Tony are doing, about how everyone is, about who is planning Mel's shower, all those things - and give them to God. I want to say, "here ya go", and have him say, "thanks, i'll let you know when I'm done!". Until then, I have to miss everyone. I have to get on facebook as often as I can, and remind people that I'm here. At least until January when I can see them again! :)

Sweet sleep to you my readers...